Tuesday, February 21, 2012

12 minutes

Its been months since I wrote.  I still stalk like crazy (blogs, I mean), and I think I should spend the next 12 minutes avoiding VERY pressing other work to do to just write a couple things.

1.  Planning a wedding is pretty stressful. I'm not good at it.  I don't care enough! I mean, I care, but I  care a lot more about OWNING my student teaching and spending time with oh, you know, that one guy I'm supposed to be gettiing married to in EXACTLY TWO MONTHS!!! AHHH!!! So excited.  But freaking because there is so much to do.

LIST:
Doc appt
dress altered
pay for photobooth
Hair?!?!
Jewelry?!?
INVITATIONS (hello?!?!?!)
take care of dumb acne
linens/ chairs/ centerpieces finalized
his suit
honeymoon?
photographer

Um, yeah.  Have I even started? BUHHH.

But the thing is, I've been busy teaching. Teaching beautiful, hilarious, oh-so-full-of-personality 6th graders. And doing my senior project.  And dealing with BYU bureaucracy.

Oh, and going to Vegas with my roommates. When will I have another opportunity?!? It was awesome. Except for the skanky dancers at Treasure Island.  What the...?  Don't take your kids. Just watch more fountain shows at the Bellagio instead.

Basically, I am living in the "my life will be happy when..." mode, which is bad.  Because when this project is done, I won't be with these kids anymore.  Sad. And when I'm all the way done student teaching, I'll be looking for a job. Scary. And when I'm married, I won't be able to pin a million things to pinterest about weddings (fairly sure I have like 6 BOARDS related to wedding on there. Ridiculous, yes.) Haha.

Wow ramble.  Basically, I have a lot to be grateful for right now. And I am grateful.  And this little thought came into my head last night: "Show your gratitude for what you have by living up to your potential."  Maybe that means to do AWESOME on this capstone project.  Or making my wedding fabulous.  Or being the most fabulously supportive fiancee in the whole world.

I don't know, but I definitely think it means my 12 minutes are up, and I'm posting this without editing it.